Email Was Down

I realized today that I havent been getting any of my email for this website.  I looked and the last email I got was on the 22nd, which was 5 days ago.  If anyone emailed me, I am afraid it has been lost in cyberspace somewhere.  I didn’t have enough space allocated and went over my limit for email.  I upped it, so email should be back in working order.  Sorry everyone if you sent something and I didnt get it!

My Day At The Zoo…Well, ER.

Oooh, what a fun day.  My daughter had a sleep over at the YMCA last night, and needed me to pick her up this morning.  I was glad to have her back, and also very anxious to get back home and get back to sleep as I have been up since 4 AM this morning.  Ugh.

Well, I’ve mentioned the neuropathy thing in the past.  Quite a few times I know.  I think I have also mentioned that has caused me to fall the past couple weeks.  It comes out of nowhere, and my legs just turn to jello.  They just melt beneath me.  Well, I guess my neuropathy decided to kick in again this morning.  Out of nowhere, was doing JUST DANDY, when my legs gave, then I fell off the curb, then down to the asphalt.  Bad thing is, the parking lot was not nice and clean, all pitted with rocks and gravel everywhere.  Was quite bad.  I couldn’t even get up for a couple minutes.  It hurt so badly.  I just layed there on the ground unable to get up.  The “adult lady” at the Y eventually helped me up and I cried hysterically all the way home.  Read more

Half-way normal.

Sooo.  Wow.  A post.  I promised one again soon and here it is.  I’m doing tons better.  Feeling mostly great.  Tired though.  Though, Brandon, that guy that came and saw me the one time at the cancer center - yes, the Hodgkin’s survivor, told me that I will be tired for about a year after all of this is said and done.  They call it post-cancer fatigue.  Not quite sure why it happens, but it does.  Sigh.  I will get my energy back one day.

Most of the chemo (which I think is mostly prednisone) effects have finally worn off.  I think by Saturday I was pretty much back to normal.  Lord, it took a week and a day.  Friday I was still feeling it, but by Saturday I was good to go.  Sunday I was able to go out and do some running around, and did ok.

But just think - I only have 4 days to go and I start it all over again. Read more

This is why I don’t sleep…

I just awoke from a dream.

I was given a couple days to live.  They were able to give me some sort of something that would keep me strong enough the last couple days to not “feel the effects” of dying, but ultimately regardless of what happened, taking this stuff would guarantee that I wouldn’t make it past these couple days, it would destroy my body beyond compare.

I made it around to see everyone, for some reason it was my quest to make sure everyone got to see me.  I felt like it was some sort of responsibility of mine.

I wore a simple pair of blue jeans and a white v-neck shirt.  I was skinny again. Read more

Chemo”therapy”? My Ass…

LOOK!  LOTS OF PICTURES!  Ok, so wow.  It’s been a long 12 days since I’ve posted.  Has it really been that long?  Yup.  Unfortunately, I won’t be able to make this an extremely long post, but I will cover as much as I can as fast as I can.  I still owe you all a few other posts - My 2nd opinion, some chemo chronicles something, and a few updates.  Well, here is one update.  So, let me stop rambling and get on with it.

Quick Notes (In absolutely NO particular order): Read more

Bigger, Better and Fatter Than Ever.

Wow, so it’s been awhile.  I have somewhat fallen out of touch with everything.  Real life and Internet life.  I spend most of my time in my room.  It’s rare I come out anymore.  I’m just so tired and worn out and feel like crap most of the time.  The chemo thing hasn’t been too bad for the most part, I guess.  But ugh.  It’s just getting hard.  Harder and harder.  But yet, I’m getting closer and closer.  Closer than all of you had been previously informed.  Will talk about that more in a bit.

So, updates:

• I got my 2nd opinion.  I will write about that on another post.
• I am on my 6th day of chemo this round.  I owe you two Chemo Chronicles now.
• I have gotten it in my head that I am going to make it rich on the Internet, and have my own Internet business.  Based on this plan, I aim to be able to quit my job within a year.  (I think it’s the chemobrain.  I can know this is stupid thinking, but somehow it makes sense…)

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