Half-way normal.

Sooo.  Wow.  A post.  I promised one again soon and here it is.  I’m doing tons better.  Feeling mostly great.  Tired though.  Though, Brandon, that guy that came and saw me the one time at the cancer center - yes, the Hodgkin’s survivor, told me that I will be tired for about a year after all of this is said and done.  They call it post-cancer fatigue.  Not quite sure why it happens, but it does.  Sigh.  I will get my energy back one day.

Most of the chemo (which I think is mostly prednisone) effects have finally worn off.  I think by Saturday I was pretty much back to normal.  Lord, it took a week and a day.  Friday I was still feeling it, but by Saturday I was good to go.  Sunday I was able to go out and do some running around, and did ok.

But just think - I only have 4 days to go and I start it all over again. Read more

Chemo”therapy”? My Ass…

LOOK!  LOTS OF PICTURES!  Ok, so wow.  It’s been a long 12 days since I’ve posted.  Has it really been that long?  Yup.  Unfortunately, I won’t be able to make this an extremely long post, but I will cover as much as I can as fast as I can.  I still owe you all a few other posts - My 2nd opinion, some chemo chronicles something, and a few updates.  Well, here is one update.  So, let me stop rambling and get on with it.

Quick Notes (In absolutely NO particular order): Read more

Bigger, Better and Fatter Than Ever.

Wow, so it’s been awhile.  I have somewhat fallen out of touch with everything.  Real life and Internet life.  I spend most of my time in my room.  It’s rare I come out anymore.  I’m just so tired and worn out and feel like crap most of the time.  The chemo thing hasn’t been too bad for the most part, I guess.  But ugh.  It’s just getting hard.  Harder and harder.  But yet, I’m getting closer and closer.  Closer than all of you had been previously informed.  Will talk about that more in a bit.

So, updates:

• I got my 2nd opinion.  I will write about that on another post.
• I am on my 6th day of chemo this round.  I owe you two Chemo Chronicles now.
• I have gotten it in my head that I am going to make it rich on the Internet, and have my own Internet business.  Based on this plan, I aim to be able to quit my job within a year.  (I think it’s the chemobrain.  I can know this is stupid thinking, but somehow it makes sense…)

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Pet Images. My Big Day!

Ok, so some of you know that I have been questioning for a couple months me being on the MOPP chemo regimen because I can’t be on ABVD because of bad PFTs (pulmonary function tests).  I have also been really concerned because I have not have a PET/CT since May 12th.  Well, today was the big day!  I had a PET.  Since I have a second opinion on Tuesday, they asked me to have them put it on disk.  And of course, since I had the disk I had to take a look.  Now, I have never seen a PET before, and I think what I THINK I am looking at looks effing awesome, but I can’t be sure.  The first image is my PET 5/12 and the second is today’s.  After the 1st PET I also listed the report that accompanied the scan.  The report isn’t ready yet for today’s scan.  Anyhow… So here they are: Read more

Not So ‘Berry Yum’

I’m sitting in this darkened room for an hour. You have to do that to prep for a PET Scan. They give you what’s called radioactive glucose, and after injected, it goes to anything active within your body. To make it not light anything up that shouldn’t be, you have to be fairly still and make little movement. I can’t even talk. The only movement I am making is with my thumbs (using my blackberry) - which they don’t scan my thumbs anyhow, so I’m okay with just that.

I had to start preparing for the PET last night. I was not allowed to have any carbs, no exercise, and nothing to eat or drink after midnight. Its after 11 am now and I am starving. I also had to take my first of three bottles of bairum last night at 10. I asked for the berry smoothie flavor this time, which led me to the clever name of not so berry yum. Get it? Barium/berry yum. Right. Anyhow. I also had to choke down a bottle at 9:10, an hour before my appt that was supposed to start at 10:10. Operative word being ’supposed’. Read more

Angry Tremors and Depression

This post is only to prove as a short very long (sorry, didn’t realize I had so much to say) update of what has been going on lately.  I feel like I have disappeared off the face of the earth.  I haven’t, I have just been not “here”.  Wherever that proverbial “here” happens to be.  I haven’t even done my “Chemo Chronicles” article for last Friday.  I will do that, but there isn’t much that you are missing.  I still want to get it down though just to get it documented - that is the point of all this anyhow.

I published an article the other day, “I’m Not Angry, I’m Just On Prednisone”, and then later that night published my very first web video, “My Nightly Chemo Meds”, which really helped me to chill a little. Read more

My Little Chat With The LLS

So, for those of you that are not familiar with what the LLS is, it is my abbreviation for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.  The LLS is an awesome advocate for those that have been diagnosed with blood cancers, such as:  Lymphoma, Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, Leukemia and Myeloma.  They are also an awesome resource and offer support to families and friends afflicted with one of these horrible diseases.  On their website, they have a little button near the top of their main page that says “Live Patient Help 10-5 ET”.  Lately, as many of you know because of prior posts, I have been worrying about whether or not MOPP is the best treatment Read more

I’m Sufficiently Appeased…For Now.

I have been putting off writing this post since Friday night.  I promised a post outlining my doctor’s appointment, and I have failed many of you.  I’m sure, though, it’s not the first or last time that will happen.  You would think, especially with the “great” outcome of the appointment I would have been a little more eager to share, but somehow the excitement escaped me. Read more

Night sweat - …?

Night sweatS?  Night sweatING?  Which is it?  I cannot tell.  One of the most common B-symptoms of Hodgkin’s is the night sweats.  I had them bad, up until my first chemo treatment, which was actually part in helping for my diagnosis.  Since they switched me from the A_VD to the MOPP, they have been increasing again. Read more

The Dreaded Moment: The Diagnosis.

To get caught up on what had happened prior to this you can click here.

Basically, this section starts with my first visit to my oncologist, Dr. Clark.  My primary told me the night before that she had gotten the results from my CT scan back and had my lab work back showing positive cancer markers.  She told me that she had talked to her oncologist friend and he gave me two choices:  I could be admitted to the hospital that night or I could be in his office promptly at noon the next day.  I decided on the most convenient of the two, the office visit and this is where I pick up.

I was kind of nervous that day walking into the cancer center, who wouldn’t be?  I didn’t know Dr.  Clark and of course, I didn’t know what to expect.  Who would know what to expect that hadn’t been through this before. Read more

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